Hello Baby :)

My RE told me to come back next week for my first ultrasound... i'll be 7 weeks pregnant then... It seems such a loooonnng wait... too long for my impatient senlf, that is :)

So today, at 6 weeks I decided to go have my ultrasound... :) Things was really slow at work today so I left work and went to the nearest hospital.

The sonologist was a bit hesitant in doing the tvs but when he finally put the freaking punnany cam inside... Lo and Behold... my baby...

I didnt know what to feel... what to say... I just saw the yolk sac and a fluttering heartbeat... at 112 bpm :)

I am trying so hard not to be too excited but I am so GRATEFUL to God who has finally given me the gift of being pregnant :)

Hello my baby... hang in there okay? Be comfy inside your little home inside me until you are ready to be in my arms... Ill do my best to be the best housing facility for you for 9 months :)

I love you baby...

Still in disbelief :)

I was talking to my sister (one of the very few people who knows) and she asked me why I didnt sound excited... Maybe I didn't sound it because I was in the state of shock! :)

I have wanted to be a mom for as long as I can remenber and the infertility struck me light. Although I've always had an odd feeling that I would have a hard time having babies, it was still devastating when I waited for months and months for a pregnancy that never came. I would cry everytime I get my period and be sad for days...

Now... I am still scared... I have heard a lot of very bad stories of miscarriages especially with pregnancies from IVF. I feel that it is too early for me to rejoice... to early for me to relax.

But part of me wants to enjoy this pregnancy... I have never been pregnant! Never... :) This is a miracle from God and I believe that He will make it happen...

Amazing Gift

Its my beta day today and its 566.46 !:)

Hubby and went to the clinic early and I was so glad that the MT was nice enough to process my blood fast... :) I was supposed to wait for 2 1/2 hours but she was so helpful and told me to wait an hour!!!

That hour was so long!!! Then a text message from my RE... "M, your beta-HCG is 566.46!!! You are pregnant!


God has been very good to me... I am still praying that I deliver a healthy baby... or babies... :)

250 is a long way to go but God will be with me all the way...

Impossible is nothing...

10 hours after...

Its been 10 hours since pea, pod and tiny were placed inside their new home. I feel a weird sense of calm... that whatever happens, everything will be ok.

Lord, I know there is very little if not nothing that I can do to make them stay inside me. I lift my three little babies up to you O Lord... Thy Will Be Done. You know what my heart wants, and I am hoping that you grant my request but you have plans greater than my dreams...

meet pea, pod and tiny :)

I just got back from my 2-day transfer and although it wasn't easy, i survived it nonetheless :) No snow babies because we decided to transfer the 3 remaining survivors.

I decided to call them Pea, Pod and Tiny :)

Pea looks great. 4 cell A- grade.
Pod is a 6 cell baby with B- grading.
Tiny is the youngest at 4 cell B- grade :)

Looking at them on the screen seemed surreal :) I pray to God that they stick to my uterus... fight my little beanie babies :)

My RE and the sonologists were ultra nice and my hubby looked like he was more in pain than I was. It was supposed to be an easy one but my cervix just wouldnt cooperate... darn... My bladder was so full and Dr C (sonologist) pressing on my tummy wasnt helping at all! Finally Rr N (RE) was able to insert the catheter. I saw the magical fluid flow inside my uterus... Sigh!

But in the end, we survived :)

I am now on a mandatory 48 hour bedrest which Boo (hubby) at my beck and call...

waiting to transfer

It has been 16 days since i started IVF # 1 and i am both excited and scared.

Although my the growth of my follicles were a bit slow, I managed to produce 7 mature eggs and had 5 fertilized. Its a but odd that my future baby/babies are now inside a petri dish... I want them inside of me growing already!

Tomorrow is day 2 and my RE might tranfer. Im just gonna have to talk to him and the embryologist.

God, give me strength :)