Still in disbelief :)

I was talking to my sister (one of the very few people who knows) and she asked me why I didnt sound excited... Maybe I didn't sound it because I was in the state of shock! :)

I have wanted to be a mom for as long as I can remenber and the infertility struck me light. Although I've always had an odd feeling that I would have a hard time having babies, it was still devastating when I waited for months and months for a pregnancy that never came. I would cry everytime I get my period and be sad for days...

Now... I am still scared... I have heard a lot of very bad stories of miscarriages especially with pregnancies from IVF. I feel that it is too early for me to rejoice... to early for me to relax.

But part of me wants to enjoy this pregnancy... I have never been pregnant! Never... :) This is a miracle from God and I believe that He will make it happen...