One Week And Counting...

Hello My Baby Mateo :)

You and I are scheduled to meet face to face a week from today! :) Imagine that? We will finally meet! I cannot wait any longer my baby... :)

Although it is getting harder and harder to get any form of sleep nowadays, I know that we will be having less sleep when you are finally in my arms :)

I will see you soon okay? Mommy needs some rest. You and your daddy were going crazy about a song by matchbox 20 last night :) He was singing to you and you were dancing inside my womb... I don't know if you actually enjoyed your dad's voice though :) For his sake lets just pretend that you did :)

We love you :)

(yep... thats mommy... pic taken by your dad :)

almost there...

hi mateo :) you are now on your 34 weeks and 2 days AOG :) your daddy and i are so excited to see you and hold you! :)

we respond more to my voice now more than ever :) you are so cute tumbling making waves inside my tummy. you also like it when your dad and i read to you the books "guess how much i love you" and "things that are bigger than me"! listening to music also makes you happy :)

one month more and we will be meeting you na!

we love you!

and our journey continues...

hi mateo :) yep... i think this is it... we will name you MATEO :) that means "Gift from God" my little precious :)

We are a few days shy from the last trimester ... Time flies so fast and I still cannot believe that it has been seven months already! :) Your daddy and mommy are very excited to see you! We have been preparing for your arrival for months! Reading, shopping, talking to you, praying for you... EVERYTHING... :)

We still have no final decisions on some small details but we hope that we will be able to have some answers soon...

As for mommy, I'm doing okay... just a bit tired most of the time. Carrying you in my uterus can take a toll on my body but you are all worth it!!! :)

Rest up little boy... we will see you soon...

We love you!!!

Delayed Morning Sickness

Hello my little baby boy :) How are you? You are 26 weeks old today! You are a lot more active now! You like tumbling around your little room and poking me! You are usually very quiet when I work but quite playful whenever i am trying to get some sleep! Are you preparing me for the sleepless nights? :)

The downside now is that I have delayed morning sickness. I feel bad in the morning. Nauseated, heatburn and dizziness... :( It can take a toll sometimes and there are days thats more difficult than others. Work has been a bit depressing too :( The only thing that is making me smile is you and your daddy trying to cheer me up.

On the brighter side, we started shopping for your stuff already! :) Your Lola H and I went to Rustans and she bought you lots and lots of stuff! It was a bit challenging to find tiny tops and pjs for you little baby! :) Daddy and I also went shopping the week after. Your Tita C also sent me lots of stuff from your cousin L's loot when she was younger! :) Now we only have to decide on your crib... :)

I love you little baby!!!

Hello Little Baby Boy!

Rafa? Marcus? :) Daddy and I are still debating for the perfect name for our perfect little boy!

Mommy had her Congenital Anomaly Screening last week and now we now that you are a boy! Everyone was so excited and they even bet on what your gender will be :) Most of the people around me guessed wrong :)

I was a bit bored at work so I decided to to the ultrasound 2 days ahead of schedule. The Sonologist immediately asked me if I wanted to find out and I said yes :) She pointed out to me the "turtle-sign" which proved that you are indeed male :) I was so excited and happy especially that everything is okay with you! We counted 10 fingers, 10 toes etc :) The OB-Sonologist was kind enough to show me 4D pictures of you! You look so adorable! :) I still cant stop staring at your picture which is now the screensaver for dad's and mom's phones :)

In a few months I will finally hold you and Daddy will take more pictures of you! We cant wait :) I can feel you movement more now and i can see you at times! :) Daddy can even feel you inside me! Exciting times! The only downside is mommy is getting fat... :)

We love you little baby boy :)

16 weeks and 6 days :)

Hi Baby! :) How are you? :) We just past the first trimester! Congratulations baby! :)

I think today is the first time i felt you move! I was just bumming around the recep area of the clinic and when I stood up, I suddendly felt a fast stabbing pain on my tummy! Could it be you saying hello? :) Well, hello to you to my little one :)

Its been almost a month since I last blogged about you. Updates : I went to your tita Sherry to have my first prenatal check up and thank God everything is A-OK :) She was so amused that I had my own doppler and nice baby book to track your growth! :)

I just know that you are growing as you should :) Mommy's tummy suddenly got bigger! People can definitely see my baby bump! :) Daddy and your cousin took pictures of me and my tummy recently! Definitely time to slather on the lotion!!! :)

I really can't wait for me to hold you in my arms baby :) But I know that you have to stay inside of me to grow :)

I love you tiny baby :) Daddy loves you too!!! :)

PS ... we ordered your stroller already!!! shhhh!! :)

almost 13 weeks old

hi baby :) how are you? :) i hope you are healthy and doing fine inside my uterus :) i still can't believe that you are growing inside me little one :) you are almost 13 weeks old! :)

your mom is back at work but i promise that i'm taking it easy :) i know i have to take care of my body especially now that you are inside of me. i have been trying to eat well... :) and taking my prenatal vitamins too!

thank you for not making me feel sick all the time :) the only thing that i had to contend with was excessive sleepiness but i am kinda over that now :)

people are starting to guess if you are a girl or a boy :) im confused as well :) but whatever it is, im just ecstatic to have you in my life! i listen to your heartbeat everyday!!!

i believe that you are God's gift to me and your dad :) you are much loved! from day one when i told your titas and lolo and lola about you... they loved you from day one! everyone is so excited for your arrival!

anyway, i just have to tell you that i am starting to have my baby bump!!! daddy has to start taking pictures of my belly :) good thing your tita che and tita joey has donated tons of maternity clothes! i;ll have more moolah to buy you baby stuff!

i love you baby! daddy loves you too!!! mwah! mwah! good night!!!

Pesky SCH gone!

A week ago we went to the OB-sonologist and lo and behold... the clot is gone! Thank you Lord! :)

9 5/7 weeks old

hi baby :)

You are almost 10 weeks old and the last ultrasound that I had showed that you are getting bigger! :) I almost cried when i saw you wriggling inside of me. You looked like a peanut and measured 2.81 cms already! I'm so proud of you! The pesky hematoma is still your neighbor but its starting to shrink! You are now bigger than it and I know that you and I will win this war :)

Your dad and I have been constantly praying for your safety and we can't wait to see you and hold you in our arms.

Just a few days ago we were "discussing" about your schooling already... funny but its true. :) We both agreed that you will go to a progressive play school before entering the big school :) We are just so excited for you!

As for your mommy, I was still recommended to take it easy until the hematoma resolves. I can do that for you :) I have gained a pound already but I know its all you :) Thank you for not making me sick all the time! No puking everywhere... just mild nausea which I can control with crackers :) And for your future reference, I am fond of eating strawberry yoghurt, dalandan juice and fruits! And the weather is making me drink water like crazy! (Its sooo hot!)

Take care my little peanut :) Dad and Mom loves you very much!

Weekend scare...

Sigh...

I wasnt feeling too well last thursday so i decided to have myself checked. (i know i am such a deliquent patient). But in a way it was a blessing indisguise that I had myself checked as tthe sonologist found a moderate subchorionic bleed in my uterus. The bad news was it was definitely not small but at least it was bit too near my precious baby :)

I was crying like a baby after and I called my RE and OB and they decided that it was a good idea for me to be admitted to the hospital.

Three days I spent in the hospital was not an easy one. The IV was a pain and boredom can really kill me... and the worst thing was the didnt allow me to travel home to my province for the Holy Week and was ordered complete bedrest for two weeks...

Anything for my little precious pod... :)

Hang in there baby... We love you!!!

Hello Baby :)

My RE told me to come back next week for my first ultrasound... i'll be 7 weeks pregnant then... It seems such a loooonnng wait... too long for my impatient senlf, that is :)

So today, at 6 weeks I decided to go have my ultrasound... :) Things was really slow at work today so I left work and went to the nearest hospital.

The sonologist was a bit hesitant in doing the tvs but when he finally put the freaking punnany cam inside... Lo and Behold... my baby...

I didnt know what to feel... what to say... I just saw the yolk sac and a fluttering heartbeat... at 112 bpm :)

I am trying so hard not to be too excited but I am so GRATEFUL to God who has finally given me the gift of being pregnant :)

Hello my baby... hang in there okay? Be comfy inside your little home inside me until you are ready to be in my arms... Ill do my best to be the best housing facility for you for 9 months :)

I love you baby...

Still in disbelief :)

I was talking to my sister (one of the very few people who knows) and she asked me why I didnt sound excited... Maybe I didn't sound it because I was in the state of shock! :)

I have wanted to be a mom for as long as I can remenber and the infertility struck me light. Although I've always had an odd feeling that I would have a hard time having babies, it was still devastating when I waited for months and months for a pregnancy that never came. I would cry everytime I get my period and be sad for days...

Now... I am still scared... I have heard a lot of very bad stories of miscarriages especially with pregnancies from IVF. I feel that it is too early for me to rejoice... to early for me to relax.

But part of me wants to enjoy this pregnancy... I have never been pregnant! Never... :) This is a miracle from God and I believe that He will make it happen...

Amazing Gift

Its my beta day today and its 566.46 !:)

Hubby and went to the clinic early and I was so glad that the MT was nice enough to process my blood fast... :) I was supposed to wait for 2 1/2 hours but she was so helpful and told me to wait an hour!!!

That hour was so long!!! Then a text message from my RE... "M, your beta-HCG is 566.46!!! You are pregnant!


God has been very good to me... I am still praying that I deliver a healthy baby... or babies... :)

250 is a long way to go but God will be with me all the way...

Impossible is nothing...

10 hours after...

Its been 10 hours since pea, pod and tiny were placed inside their new home. I feel a weird sense of calm... that whatever happens, everything will be ok.

Lord, I know there is very little if not nothing that I can do to make them stay inside me. I lift my three little babies up to you O Lord... Thy Will Be Done. You know what my heart wants, and I am hoping that you grant my request but you have plans greater than my dreams...

meet pea, pod and tiny :)

I just got back from my 2-day transfer and although it wasn't easy, i survived it nonetheless :) No snow babies because we decided to transfer the 3 remaining survivors.

I decided to call them Pea, Pod and Tiny :)

Pea looks great. 4 cell A- grade.
Pod is a 6 cell baby with B- grading.
Tiny is the youngest at 4 cell B- grade :)

Looking at them on the screen seemed surreal :) I pray to God that they stick to my uterus... fight my little beanie babies :)

My RE and the sonologists were ultra nice and my hubby looked like he was more in pain than I was. It was supposed to be an easy one but my cervix just wouldnt cooperate... darn... My bladder was so full and Dr C (sonologist) pressing on my tummy wasnt helping at all! Finally Rr N (RE) was able to insert the catheter. I saw the magical fluid flow inside my uterus... Sigh!

But in the end, we survived :)

I am now on a mandatory 48 hour bedrest which Boo (hubby) at my beck and call...

waiting to transfer

It has been 16 days since i started IVF # 1 and i am both excited and scared.

Although my the growth of my follicles were a bit slow, I managed to produce 7 mature eggs and had 5 fertilized. Its a but odd that my future baby/babies are now inside a petri dish... I want them inside of me growing already!

Tomorrow is day 2 and my RE might tranfer. Im just gonna have to talk to him and the embryologist.

God, give me strength :)