9 5/7 weeks old

hi baby :)

You are almost 10 weeks old and the last ultrasound that I had showed that you are getting bigger! :) I almost cried when i saw you wriggling inside of me. You looked like a peanut and measured 2.81 cms already! I'm so proud of you! The pesky hematoma is still your neighbor but its starting to shrink! You are now bigger than it and I know that you and I will win this war :)

Your dad and I have been constantly praying for your safety and we can't wait to see you and hold you in our arms.

Just a few days ago we were "discussing" about your schooling already... funny but its true. :) We both agreed that you will go to a progressive play school before entering the big school :) We are just so excited for you!

As for your mommy, I was still recommended to take it easy until the hematoma resolves. I can do that for you :) I have gained a pound already but I know its all you :) Thank you for not making me sick all the time! No puking everywhere... just mild nausea which I can control with crackers :) And for your future reference, I am fond of eating strawberry yoghurt, dalandan juice and fruits! And the weather is making me drink water like crazy! (Its sooo hot!)

Take care my little peanut :) Dad and Mom loves you very much!

Weekend scare...

Sigh...

I wasnt feeling too well last thursday so i decided to have myself checked. (i know i am such a deliquent patient). But in a way it was a blessing indisguise that I had myself checked as tthe sonologist found a moderate subchorionic bleed in my uterus. The bad news was it was definitely not small but at least it was bit too near my precious baby :)

I was crying like a baby after and I called my RE and OB and they decided that it was a good idea for me to be admitted to the hospital.

Three days I spent in the hospital was not an easy one. The IV was a pain and boredom can really kill me... and the worst thing was the didnt allow me to travel home to my province for the Holy Week and was ordered complete bedrest for two weeks...

Anything for my little precious pod... :)

Hang in there baby... We love you!!!

Hello Baby :)

My RE told me to come back next week for my first ultrasound... i'll be 7 weeks pregnant then... It seems such a loooonnng wait... too long for my impatient senlf, that is :)

So today, at 6 weeks I decided to go have my ultrasound... :) Things was really slow at work today so I left work and went to the nearest hospital.

The sonologist was a bit hesitant in doing the tvs but when he finally put the freaking punnany cam inside... Lo and Behold... my baby...

I didnt know what to feel... what to say... I just saw the yolk sac and a fluttering heartbeat... at 112 bpm :)

I am trying so hard not to be too excited but I am so GRATEFUL to God who has finally given me the gift of being pregnant :)

Hello my baby... hang in there okay? Be comfy inside your little home inside me until you are ready to be in my arms... Ill do my best to be the best housing facility for you for 9 months :)

I love you baby...

Still in disbelief :)

I was talking to my sister (one of the very few people who knows) and she asked me why I didnt sound excited... Maybe I didn't sound it because I was in the state of shock! :)

I have wanted to be a mom for as long as I can remenber and the infertility struck me light. Although I've always had an odd feeling that I would have a hard time having babies, it was still devastating when I waited for months and months for a pregnancy that never came. I would cry everytime I get my period and be sad for days...

Now... I am still scared... I have heard a lot of very bad stories of miscarriages especially with pregnancies from IVF. I feel that it is too early for me to rejoice... to early for me to relax.

But part of me wants to enjoy this pregnancy... I have never been pregnant! Never... :) This is a miracle from God and I believe that He will make it happen...

Amazing Gift

Its my beta day today and its 566.46 !:)

Hubby and went to the clinic early and I was so glad that the MT was nice enough to process my blood fast... :) I was supposed to wait for 2 1/2 hours but she was so helpful and told me to wait an hour!!!

That hour was so long!!! Then a text message from my RE... "M, your beta-HCG is 566.46!!! You are pregnant!


God has been very good to me... I am still praying that I deliver a healthy baby... or babies... :)

250 is a long way to go but God will be with me all the way...

Impossible is nothing...

10 hours after...

Its been 10 hours since pea, pod and tiny were placed inside their new home. I feel a weird sense of calm... that whatever happens, everything will be ok.

Lord, I know there is very little if not nothing that I can do to make them stay inside me. I lift my three little babies up to you O Lord... Thy Will Be Done. You know what my heart wants, and I am hoping that you grant my request but you have plans greater than my dreams...

meet pea, pod and tiny :)

I just got back from my 2-day transfer and although it wasn't easy, i survived it nonetheless :) No snow babies because we decided to transfer the 3 remaining survivors.

I decided to call them Pea, Pod and Tiny :)

Pea looks great. 4 cell A- grade.
Pod is a 6 cell baby with B- grading.
Tiny is the youngest at 4 cell B- grade :)

Looking at them on the screen seemed surreal :) I pray to God that they stick to my uterus... fight my little beanie babies :)

My RE and the sonologists were ultra nice and my hubby looked like he was more in pain than I was. It was supposed to be an easy one but my cervix just wouldnt cooperate... darn... My bladder was so full and Dr C (sonologist) pressing on my tummy wasnt helping at all! Finally Rr N (RE) was able to insert the catheter. I saw the magical fluid flow inside my uterus... Sigh!

But in the end, we survived :)

I am now on a mandatory 48 hour bedrest which Boo (hubby) at my beck and call...